I pride myself on keeping a positive front at all times. I mean, that’s the primary theme of my blog. But I do have to admit that there are days when I just feel as if the walls are closing in on me. I feel like I’m going to sink into a puddle of nothingness and the constant fight against that feeling becomes a losing battle.
I’ve come to realize that it’s okay to not always have your shit together. We are human after all. The only way to stay positive is to have those moments where we go off the rails once in a while – because we live flawed lives – that’s what makes it real. And we also need to realize, that most of the time, it’s not even us that is the cause of our anxiety, but more so external factors like facing stressful situations beyond your control, or other people taking out their frustrations and insecurities on you, etc.
When I feel this way, however, I always make sure I keep my own irritations in check, because the last thing I want to do is rub off the same negativity to others that has caused my own anxiety – that is just counter-productive.
Instead, what I try to do is take a minute to myself in solitude and just disconnect from everything in order to clear my head. Oftentimes that is all you need – to just be alone – away from all the noise – and that includes your third arm aka your phone. I give myself time to just calm down, no matter how long that might take, and essentially feel ‘normal’ again. Then I slowly start to feel as though I’m back on track and start re-engaging with others, because I’ll be doing so as the real me and not the irritated version.
So beautiful people, don’t feel like a failure if you have one of those moments where you just can’t and don’t want to keep it all together. It’s okay.